Dear Blog

Dear Blog,

here i am again. Sorry that i only come here whenever i am flooded with feelings. This time i'm typing this with hot tears cruising down my cheeks? Why? Why should i bother?

Yesterday was Youth Day, a happy occasion, but things went topsy-turvy when Tiger broke the news to us. Another death of my classmate's parent. Let me start with me admitting that i dont feel any emotions stirring within me when i heard the news. After all, we were merely classmates, and not even close ones at that. I was once his Angel, but we were never close. So why am i affected?

Cause i am guilty. I am guilty that i treated my parents the way i am. Why must it always be this way- that something happens, and i feel bad, then i learnt my lesson, and i will change? I hate feeling this way!

Ivan Mat just had a quarrel with me. We were actually only discussing about the "big drama". But i told him that it wasnt the time to pinpoint who was actually really crying and not. And things go awry. Ivan turned back to call me the hypocrite.

It hurt.