AHHHHHHHHHH BRILLIANT!!!

Your Learning Style: Curious and Brilliant

You are a very abstract learner. You can grasp even the most complex theories. You Should Study: Astronomy Biology Chemistry Computer Science Linguistics Mathematics Philosophy Physics Psychology

What Should You Study?

You Should Travel to Thailand

You may enjoy getting spiritual at a Buddhist retreat... Or just feasting on a ton of cheap and amazing Thai food.

What Asian Country Should You Visit?

Yes, indeed..:(

"You have no idea how different we are."


Yes, indeed..:(

I'm a Cat!!

Your Brain is 47% Female, 53% Male

Your brain is a healthy mix of male and female You are both sensitive and savvy Rational and reasonable, you tend to keep level headed But you also tend to wear your heart on your sleeve

What Gender Is Your Brain?

You Are Pretty Logical

You're a bit of a wizard when it comes to logic While you don't have perfect logic, you logic is pretty darn good Keep at it - you've got a lot of natural talent in this area!

How Logical Are You?

You Are A Good Friend

You're always willing to listen Or lend a shoulder to cry on You're there through thick and thin Many people consider you their "best friend"!

What Kind of Friend Are You?

You are 33% Leo

How Leo Are You?

You Should Drive a Lamborghini

A true daredevil, you're always in search of a new rush. Clearly, you're a total speed demon... just don't get caught!

What Sports Car Should You Drive?

Your Inner Blood Type is AB!

Your personality is hard to define - you're very unconventional. And even if your personality could be defined, it would be completely different next week! Outgoing and shy, sensitive and thoughtless, you tend to have a very split personality. This makes you unpredictable. You can be a total angel - and a total devil. You are most compatible with: everyone! Famous Type AB's: Jackie Chan and Marilyn Monroe

What's Your Inner Blood Type?

Your Emoticon Is Laughing

You've got a wicked sense of humor. You're everyone's favorite IM buddy... at least today!

What Emoticon Best Represents You Right Now?

You Have Good Karma

In general, you like to do the right thing when it comes to others. Your caring personality really shines through. Sure, you have your moments of weakness - and occasionally act out. But, all in all, you're karma is good... even with those few dark spots.

How's Your Karma?

Your Aura is Red

You have a high level of emotion. This can mean passion, but it can also mean rage. Usually, you don't take these emotions out on others. You just use them as motivation - and it works! The purpose of your life: embracing all the wonders of the life, lots of travels, and tons of adventures Famous reds include: Madonna, Marilyn Monroe, Jennifer Lopez Careers for you to try: Dancer, Boxer, Surgeon

What Color Is Your Aura?

i think i do rage alot.. muahahaha!!!

Weee!! I can't believe i'm posting this man

Your True Love Is an Aquarius

Why you'll love an Aquarius: Independent yet devoted, you'll appreciate the unique approach to love Aquarius takes. You both see love as a bit of a game, and Aquarius will challenge you until you're completely hooked. Why an Aquarius will love you: You're secure enough to give Aquarius tons of space - even if it means separate interests and friends. You have the brains to keep Aquarius engaged and curious. And the passion to change the world together!

What Sign Is Your True Love?

You Are A Poplar Tree

People tend to look up to you, and it's a bit lonely at the top. Inside, you are not always self confident, but you show great courage. Mature and organized, you are reliable in any situation. You tend to have an artistic or philosophical outlook on life. You are very choosy in love and take partnership seriously.

What's Your Celtic Horoscope?

What Your Soul Really Looks Like

You are a warm hearted and open minded person. It's easy for you to forgive and forget. You are a grounded person, but you also leave room for imagination and dreams. You feet may be on the ground, but you're head is in the clouds. You believe that people see you as larger than life and important. While this is true, they also think you're a bit full of yourself. Your near future is in a very different place (both physically and mentally) from where you are right now. For you, love is all about caring and comfort. You couldn't fall in love with someone you didn't trust.

Inside the Room of Your Soul

a body lying in an awkward position, with the head twisted at a weird angle. intestines and the person's last meal spilled out in a bloody mass on the ground...

i'm going crazy trying not to kill myself.

what am i to do if i ever lose you? my dear sister..i love you so!

nothing in particular

If anyone noticed, I only blog when i'm sad.
I write to forget..


what happened?

The Bird of Sorrow flies high indeed

I havent felt so bad for a long time. This feeling - it's like someone smashed your porcelain heart on the floor.

What is left is nothing. Not even the pieces. I cant even pick up the pieces.

Nothing. Nothing. Nothing.

I felt so bad after reading Grant's blog. All because this stupid mouth of mine had to shoot itself off. I just had to accuse him. All i wanted was to push the blame on someone else because i couldnt believe something like this would happen to me. Getting your gc stolen before the exam. (Read his 26th june entry for details. Sorry Grant.)

The GC was secondary, it was that shock that was really primary, if you get what i mean. I couldnt believe anyone was so evil to do this. First day of exams, right after the bell rung and approximately 15 minutes to exam, i realised my gc got stolen.

My mind went into a blank. Everything came to a standstill.

Having the exam jitters was enough. Being not prepared at all for exams unlike i used to be is another thing. But my gc?

In case the thief didnt know, i'm under the financial assistance scheme. Though i didnt pay the full cost for the gc, how was i supposed to fork out another $175 for it? Leave it to my mum? For god's sake she already had enough supporting the 5 of us at home.

And essentially, at that point of time, about 10 minutes left to exams, how was i to find another GC!? Thank goodness i braced myself on time and recalled that i used some GCs during PAE and managed to get borrow it from the Math Department.
(Another) in case the thief didnt know, he/she could have sought a teacher if he/she forgot to bring his GC. Apparently, that didnt occur to the thief. What is it made these PJC students so..senseless? I thought i was bad enough, until yesterday my friend told me his friend's chinese dictionary got stolen before the MT exams.

But the harm was done. Not only i was affected, i dragged a few other people in too. Take my sister for one, Grant another.


Actually i didnt know i affected Grant that much. I broke down after reading his blog just now because of many factors. Perhaps to a certain extent the diction he used, but mainly because i dragged him down. He probably screwed up his exams as much as i did. Because the following day, i got reprimanded by the almighty VP for "creating an opportunity". How comforting was that before my Econs exams? Plus the stress from my parents, who wanted the thief dug out and the truth exposed to the whole school. They called the office and demanded something to be done. Meanwhile i was sandwiched in between the school,who refused responsibility for the whole incident, and my fuming parents. If only the VP announced the incident(that's the least my parents wanted, he called it "childish"), it'd have prevented another one from happening. But alas...

For some inexplicable reason, i couldnt take the incident out of my mind for the rest of the week.

Isn't it funny such a simple incident had such dire consequences?






How i wish my brother understood how important this exam was to me. How i wish i said sorry that night 2 years ago. How i wish he'll ever speak to me after that incident.

How i wish i didnt have to scream at him to switch off his blasting music during exams.





Goddess of Yesterday, hear my cry. Be with me. Be also my Goddess of Tomorrow....


i knew i was losing him...why should i bother to even think about it? do i have the right to?

jinx

somehow, i always feel i'm a jinx.

my gc got stolen before math mid-years. how lucky can anyone get?

then i got called into office just before econs papers. reprimanded for something that's not my fault. "you gave the opportunity for him/her to steal your gc" he said.

i only want them to announce it during assembly! not my case, but many others whose things got stolen too. why do the students resort to this instead of borrowing from the math department? the school has practically about 5 boxes full of brand new gcs

what's wrong with pjc?

"tick, tock, tick, tock..."

Time. I need more time! -To sleep, to play, to study, to relax, to.....

"Perhaps the clock hands had become so tired of going in the same direction year after year that they had suddenly begun to go the opposite way instead."

I forgot..

Recently, i feel like i've left everything behind.

My BP memories, friends and i'm even starting to forget everyone's birthdays. There's nothing i'm so sure of now, even my emotions. I think i've even forgotten how to talk. I know, i always say that, but i really forgot.

So many things to do, so little done..




What am i waiting for? CHRISTMAS?! okay, that was a sucky joke.=P

Dearest..

I've plenty of time to think about things today, since I was waiting for the rain to stop at the LRT station.

Is it foolish to so? I wonder why it attracts stares to be sitting there writing this very entry(which i'm typing down now). I'm merely grasping this opportunity to captivate this wonderful moment.the sky seems to show no sign of relenting, and in fact, the rain is beating down even harder.Perhaps it's just a chance for me to think. How often do people get to sit at lrt stations, waiting for the rain?

Ok. I'm bored. So is this entry. Argh i'm rambling on.. but no one cares la..

Hmm.. perhaps i shall bring it back to what i was pondering about just now. Choices. If i had chosen to take the bus then, I wouldnt be stranded in this station. By this time, i'll probably be cosy and warm in bed. But then, i hadn't expected the rain to come down so fast. One moment it was all sunshine, and the next moment, it pours.

Life is so much like this. Unpredictable.

Since i have already taken this path, i might as well go ahead. not backwards. make the best out of pioneer.


yeah hc please help me correct my grammar.

And history repeats itself

so tears are rolling down my cheeks.. all over again and again and again..

i just don't understand. why. these things always happen to me.

When i saw the ODAC list posted up, and my name wasn't there.. all the things just came hitting me like a blow. Right there straight in my face. and all past memories just came flying back. this listing meant so much to me. i pinned 99% of my hopes on it and just 1% on canoe. i tried so hard to redeem myself for not doing the caterpillar. i did everything i could. i screamed. i initiated. i led. i followed.

Yet.





where were you when i needed you most?

"i have lessons. bye."
"why are you crying over such a little thing? trying to attract attention is it?"