上天的最后机会

I dreamt that I was dead.


或许这就是他们献给我的最后机会。。


This's got to be the weirdest dream I ever had. I woke up crying, and my sobbing startled xx awake. I woke up thinking that it was real - it took xx several times to convince me that it wasn't.

I cried for a long time afterwards. Can't fall asleep now with so many things I want to say, so that's why I'm typing this now..

I dreamt that I died in Taiwan, and everything that followed in these 2 weeks after was just a sequel to my death. In the dream, there were times I didn't remember that I was already dead. And then I put in too much of myself.. gosh.. the dream was just a repeat of everything that happened, with a few additions and there. So real it scares me.


可能，这是她给我的劝导 - 要我珍惜现在的一切？


I dreamt of him, my mum, and many others. I dreamt that when I was with him, I forgot that I was dead. I was so happy to be with him on his birthday I didn't realise it was not to be..

I dreamt that V sticked through with me, gave me support throughout the whole ordeal.

I dreamt that Mama did everything a mother will do for her child. Of course, I know she does now too=)

And then in the end, I dreamt that while Mama was putting me to bed, everything rushed back to me. I dreamt that I was guilty, because he was oblivious that I was... Yet, I put in too much. I thought of how eventually my spirit will leave this world, and it hurt so much to think I will leave all my loved ones.

I asked her,

“妈妈，你会不会忘记我？
我好怕我会忘了你。。
你可要记得我。。。”

The tears kept flowing after that.
Now I know how(good) it is to live twice.