i doubt what i am..

Cruel as a knife,
I cut.










Like the blade,
I am cold.
Unfeeling.Harsh.


Am I wrong..to be who I am? Once again, I have shattered a fragile heart.








Along with it, a shard pierced through my own.

The Escapade to Nowhere..

Dear A,

I think you'd have known by now that I am the girl who came to your house last night. I'm sorry to have put you in a spot by deciding to stay on in your house.. it must have came to you as a big shock.

I'm truly apologetic for my rash and immature behaviour..I must have struck you as a rebellious adolescent, haven't I? Well, I know no amount of talking will suffice for my childish behaviour, but I hope you'd listen to my explanation..I had the worse quarrel with my twin sister, and in her anger, she hollered at me "not to go home" anymore. On the spur-of-the-moment then, I heeded her.

There was no one i could really turn to so.. I turned to B. I'm sorry I put those ideas into B's mind and I sincerely hope you'd not reprimand B for what'd happened.

Lastly, I assure you no such escapades will ever happen again.. I'm sorry for being such a brash child.

Sincerely,

Xiu Yi



26/07/07:
More than 2 months have passed.. It felt like an adventure then. Now I'm ashamed. Truly ashamed. And I'm now facing the percussions of my foolish actions.